Where to Begin?

Not really sure where to begin with this post but I’m going to try to do my best to give you all the information I can! 

Last night I was sitting in my recliner at home and my phone rang.  It was my oncologist office. So, I answered and it was my oncologist calling to talk about the results from my PETScan and MRI. He explained the findings in the scans were everything was about the same no real change and the lymphnodes in the outer portion of the groin might actually be more active. So with this news we knew when we went to see the surgeon tomorrow morning that we weren't looking at surgery right now. We knew we would be looking at more chemotherapy treatment and then maybe something down the road. 

However, we weren't prepared for the news we would receive from the surgeon this morning. 

We arrive at the first appointment of the day to USA Hospital to meet with our surgeon and get checked in. We are taken back to the waiting room for the doctor to come in. After what seemed like an eternity the nurse practitioner came in and asked questions and said okay I will get the doctor. 

Our surgeon came in and gave us the news that surgery was not an option and more than likely the surgery for a cure would probably not happen ever. The MRI showed a much "better" picture of the disease. It was worse than originally thought, however, it still hasn't metastasize to any major organs right now which is a HUGE praise. However, it is in the lymphatic system a little more than first realized and is in some key places that could be a problem if it doesn't respond to chemotherapy. 

The surgeon explained if they did the surgery now they would have to go in a basically take everything out. I would have to have two colostomy bags for the rest of my life, and the surgery would be very difficult and very hard on me and it still wouldn't be a cure. It would keep me off treatment so long it could potentially hurt me and set me back. The tumor has actually responded well but the tumor is larger than first realized. It has a growth or second tumor to one side that is creeping into the area close to the prostate and bladder. 

With this being said we will meet with the oncologist team next Tuesday to start a new regiment of chemotherapy. As of right now this looks like it will be the new normal for my life. 

Words cannot express my love and gratitude for each and every one of you. BUT I NEED YOU NOW MORE THAN EVER TO PRAY FOR THE MIRACLE OF COMPLETE HEALING. God has been so faithful during all of this and I know either way I win!