What to say when there are no words to say
Today we saw the oncologist at MD Anderson.... again waited and waited! But we had a good time while we waited to see the doctor. The doctor came in and started explaining some things about blood counts and tumor markers and etc. and to be honest we I zoned out a little because it was just the same ole stuff!
PICTURE THIS: have you ever arrived at a meeting and it seems that you are the only one prepared for said meeting... Do you get angry or disappointed and want to walk out?!? That’s how I felt today, he hadn’t looked at the scans from Monday until we got in the room nor the lab work. Needless to say I was over it before it even began.
He proceeded to say that the tumor and the original cancer area hasn’t changed much which is totally different than what we where told at home. Also he said he was fairly certain that the spot on my first rib on the left side is a new cancer spot... this isn’t bone cancer but an area were this cancer has metastasized too.
He did however say this isn’t necessarily uncommon with the aggressive and signet ring cancer I have. He did explain that cancer has a way of changing its DNA or original state when treated in order to keep itself alive. There is also a very small spot on my lung that they want to keep an eye on.
All in all exactly what I was expecting but not what I wanted.... what do you do when you receive this kind of news over and over and over again. My only answer is get on your knees!! I don’t have all the answer and never will. I do know that I have a Father above that loves me more than anything in this world and until He calls me home I put my TRUST in Him.
Sometimes we don’t know why we have to go through what we have to go through. All I know is this, God is using this as a part of my story, and I pray that my story touches and changes at least one life for HIM.
The only way to get through this life and all the crap that comes with it is to have a relationship with the One true God, the ultimate healer, our Jehovah Rafa.
So for know that’s the news... we are looking at changing chemo treatments up a little bit and starting to look for Phase 1 or Phase 2 clinical trials at (UAB, Vanderbilt or MD Anderson) I would ask you to pray specifically where God would have us to go and direct our paths for the next treatment course.
Also say a prayer for my beautiful wife and sweet family... getting rough news over and over is trying and wearing on everyone. However, I know a VICTORY is right around the corner.
Until next time... Hold fast to God and remember He is always with you!
- Isaiah 43:2
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