How in the World Are You?
That’s a hard question to answer sometimes. I get asked often how are you? How are you doing? How are treatments going? When in reality that’s the last thing you want think about... I feel that I have been very honest and open about this journey with all of you “my prayer warriors”. However I haven’t updated you in a while and there is a reason for that. I just simply didn’t want to talk about it.
Through this whole journey all of my doctors have been amazed at how I have handled the news, the treatment, side effects and etc. (BTW thats Jesus, not me) There are days I didn’t want to get out of bed but God nudged me and said you got this! I have come through radiation as if nothing was even happening. Chemo didn’t kick my butt nearly as bad as it does most people. All in all you would look at me and say he’s fine, he can’t be sick.
but the Truth of the matter is....
Im 28 years old with stage 4 colorectal cancer and I am scared. This road hasn’t been easy and it’s only going to get a little harder. We met with a new surgeon a couple of weeks ago and the news wasn’t the greatest but we are believing that God will do a work in me that only he can.
In a nutshell surgery is the ultimate fix for this disease, however the lymph nodes I have in the outer section of the groin area makes this very difficult to do or almost impossible. If the outer lymph nodes haven’t responded to treatment like they need to then I will have to go back on chemotherapy regiment. They warned this time it would be a different type and I would loose my hair.
I laughed and joked about that but I really don’t know how I feel about it. For all of those who know me well know I’m already half bald lol so why should it matter so much. But it does!
Anyway back to the story, we met with my oncologist this week and walked through a treatment plan if surgery wasn’t an option. We did get some good news in that meeting! My tumor marker had gone from a 7.2 to a 2. Tumor markers are substances that are produced by cancer or by other cells of the body in response to cancer or certain benign (noncancerous) conditions. Most tumor markers are made by normal cells as well as by cancer cells; however, they are produced at much higher levels in cancerous conditions. These substances can be found in the blood, urine, stool, tumor tissue, or other tissues or bodily fluids of some patients with cancer. Most tumor markers are proteins.
So we are rejoicing for some good news!
So today as I sit and reflect on the journey behind and the journey ahead... Words cannot express how grateful I am for YOU! I can not put into words what it feels like to know that people all across the world are thinking and praying for me. It is also so humbling to know that many of you pray for me everyday, that is HUGE to me! I am so grateful for the journey and I am so glad I get to walk this journey with you, it wouldn't be the same without you.
I shared a statement not to long ago from a great song!
Either Way I Win!
If HE should call me home today or if on this Earth you let me stay. When my life comes to an end, Either way I win!
https://youtu.be/SiAFE3IVAIA